As much as I’ve tried to insert myself into their family units, I’ve been reminded by their repeated rejections that I don’t belong. I am not one of them. Despite the closeness and history of our connection, I will always be an outsider to any family unit other than my own. That may sound like a harsh statement, and believe me, it was a painful reality to come to – in fact, it has taken several such disappointing situations for me to recognize the truth of it. No amount of filling my time and space with company is going to satisfy my desire to have my own mate – my match, my companion.
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“I am the MOST loving, forgiving, and selfless person EVER!”
“And does the master thank the servant for doing what he was told to do? Of course not. In the same way, when you obey me you should say, ‘We are unworthy servants who have simply done our duty.’” So says Jesus.
Two Life Living Lessons from Mom
Nearly everything I learned from my mother, I learned from watching her live; observing how she interacted with and treated others. Occasionally, I missed a lesson and took my cues from how people treated her – dismissively, disrespectfully or abusively. When I responded to them in kind, mom would rebuke me with a great deal of irritation….
Who Are You Building For?
When you dedicate yourself – your life – to God, when you submit to the guidance of the Holy Spirit and lean on the teachings of Jesus Christ everything you do is imbued with His essence. Everything. You don’t have to draw attention to yourself, however people will be drawn to you – not because of who you are but because of whose you are
Some Thoughts on Challenges
I believe the challenges we face in our lives are all the same (source or nature) at ages 30 and 60 as they were at 3 and 6. We just process them differently and learn from different elements of the challenge.
Prejudice Against Emotion
While the pulpit and the church people are decrying emotion and cultivating a frigid intellectual life, the theater is playing on the emotional life of the people, and they have the crowds and the money to support them.
In this we are confronted by a fact we cannot down – it stares us in the face and will not go at our bidding, viz.: God gave man an emotional nature, and for wise and holy purposes. If we seek to destroy that nature, then we destroy the man as God made him, and we can but expect that he will dedicate his life to other ends than that for which he was created.
Healed to the best of your understanding.
When my dad died, I realized that I had been subconsciously waiting for him to want a relationship with me. With my hope turned on low, I still hoped he would one day reach out to me in response to all my pass efforts… but he refused to send word to me, to request my presence, to offer reconciliation. That saddened me, but I realized he preferred to go to his grave before reconciling our relationship. Building a relationship was of no interest to him. And I’m okay with his preference. Understanding that about him put my interactions with men in a whole new light. My intolerance, my harshness. My hope, my repeated efforts. My exhaustion and frustration. My desire to build a relationship and lack of understanding of how to go about it. My ineffective communication and my inability to get what I want – a husband and family of my own.
It doesn’t even matter
I’m not a popular person in my family. Not well liked at all. I used to think I was ostracized because I spoke up for myself, which opened the family to scrutiny. Now I know it is because I spoke up for myself. I acted on faith and actively freed myself from bondage. When IContinueContinue reading “It doesn’t even matter”
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